When I was a little girl, my father used to take me to work with him on occasion. He was an electrical engineer. I would absolutely love to sit at one of those big drafting desks and draw all over his old blueprints with highlighters. It made me feel important, like I had a very special job to do. Pure joy.
This last year has been one of really evaluating my life and trying to find the things that really bring me joy. They are mostly simple things. Creating beauty. Painting. Making my space pretty. Selling my art. Snuggling my girls. Spending time with my loves. Cooking. Enjoying my life.
But it’s one thing to know the things that bring you joy. It’s another thing to let yourself experience joy. Because of the trauma that I have walked through, I still have difficulty with allowing myself to enjoy my life. You know, waiting for the other shoe to drop thing? It’s so much easier to just sabotage joy so that you don’t have to deal with the disappointment. I know so many of you can relate to that feeling.
So I have been going there. To the place where I actually let myself experience joy. Changing a lot of those thought patterns is very hard. But gosh darn it, I deserve joy. I am amazing.
I have sort of retreated in a way. I am looking less and less at what other people are doing. You know how easy it is to get into that comparison thought process, especially when your community is a group of very talented artists. I am so grateful for such a large tribe of like minded artists. But sometimes you have to shut yourself off from all of that input on social media. I am going at my own pace. And even though it feels slow at times, I am going to follow what feels authentic to me. I am going to follow that which brings me joy.
One of my biggest joys is painting abstract paintings. They feel completely impractical as opposed to some of my other art. But I think that is exactly why I enjoy them so much. It’s about the process and expressing a part of my heart that can only be expressed with a mess of paint and texture and color.
It’s also one of my secret dreams to sell huge abstracts for thousands of dollars. Why not? So on a whim I decided to create some abstracts for Saatchi Art Online Gallery. I honestly don’t know if it will go anywhere, but it’s a step in the right direction. I feel a little shy sharing my account because the practical critic in me says, I will never sell anything. But I will never know if I don’t try…
So maybe, if you are on Pinterest you would help me out by pinning my paintings from my new Saatchi account? I would be so grateful. Check out my paintings here.
Hey ya’ll! I am over here. On Instagram. I’m there a lot. But today I am having a sale on these little original birdies. Little mini 5 x 7 originals. $40-$60. Plus shipping. So head on over to my account and follow me. The first person to comment with their email address, gets it. If you want one, head on over.
It’s been a while since I have announced intentions here on the blog. I am constantly setting goals, but I think there is power in proclaiming things publicly. I have been a little frustrated lately. In order to break into the art licensing business, you really have to develop quick thick skin. It’s tough sometimes. You submit a lot of your artwork. You put it out there. You wait. And most of the time you don’t even get a rejection email back. It can really be gut wrenching.
But recently I have been submitting consistently on Sundays. It’s my Submissions Sunday. I figure that all those art directors will be opening my emails first thing Monday mornings.
Then I kind of hold my breath and wait all Monday. Usually there isn’t even a reply. Sometimes, it’s we are not looking for that right now, but we really like your work. The best rejections are usually, keep sending your work. It can be super grueling emotionally.
Then sometimes you get a response of please send us jpgs and we will look at them at our meeting. Do you know that I have seriously talked to 5 companies about designing my own fabric? And still nothing. So even if they are interested, it’s not even a done deal then.
Anyways. You get the idea.
It’s really hard to stay in the process when you are a visionary/dreamer. At least it is for me. I always have these great big dreams and goals. And when I don’t see those things happening, it can be discouraging to say the least. But really you just have to keep making art. And keep submitting it.
But let’s get back to intentions. Once upon a time I set intentions on my blog and lo and behold I got my very first magazine article. Just by setting that intention. The editor emailed me soon after I published a blog post that it was my dream to have an article published in one of their magazines. And now years later, I have been published in many Stampington magazines.
I am not saying that it’s magical. But there is something to setting intentions.
I have really been thinking about my passion. What do I really really really want to do? What would be my dream gig? And when I think about that, I would love to develop a home decor line. I started painting because I wanted art for my wall. I love the home. I love surrounding myself with things of beauty. Pillows, lamps, wall art, mugs, plates, rugs and knick knacks. They all make my heart go pitter patter.
So there you go. I really want to design a home decor line. This week I set about creating some product mockups with a collection I just finished. At first it was difficult to envision. But then once I got into the groove, I couldn’t really stop. So here is my Forest and Fauna Home Decor Line.
Do you hear that Home Decor companies? I want to work with you. So feel free to come knocking on my door!
When I was five I remember standing in the fabric store mesmerized by all the colors of thread. It felt like a whole new world opened up to me. Seeing all those beautiful colors next to each other was just pure magic. So I did the most rational thing possible. Picked out my very favorite colors and stuck them deep into my pockets. Most five year olds shoplift candy or toys. But not me. I go for thread. I am hardcore. I don’t think we got far before my mom realized what I had done and I had to return them to the store.
So this week I decided I was going to make a pompom garland. My mom gave me her stash of yarn. But my heart was longing for some bright happy colors. So off I ventured to the fabric store, thinking I would only buy one or two new colors.
For the love of pompoms people, why has no one ever warned me about the yarn section at the fabric store? I was instantly five years old again. I wanted every single darn shade. I can’t even tell you how happy it made my little heart. Oh how I love color!
Now I never want to leave this happy little corner of my home.
I am super excited that my new website is now live!!! I worked really hard on it and taught myself WordPress.org. It is a work in progress but I would love for you to go check it out and let me know what you think. Hopefully all of the kinks have been worked out. It helps to have a Geek for a husband!!!! You can go check it out here. Super excited!!! Here is some new artwork as well. Enjoy!
It literally feels like I can’t even keep up with posting new artwork because I am creating stuff so fast! I showed you some new work the other day as a sort of before and after. But there is so much more that is new to share!!!! Plus, I am super excited to share with you a brand new website very soon. It’s all done, but I am just waiting for the technical side of everything to get uploaded. AND… I feel really proud of this new website. I feel so good to be getting my bearings again… Like maybe, there is something around the corner besides these awful health problems and mental health issues. I will say that anxiety is not to be messed with and you most definitely have to get help. I am so happy that I did and that I am on a path that is getting better every day. I still have rough days, and rough moments. But they are slowly getting fewer and farther between. Anyways, I don’t even remember what artwork I have posted. So here goes….
You know I love a good makeover! And sometimes I love certain pieces to return to them and kind of freshen them up a bit. These two pieces are pencil portraits that I did in high school. When I first started doing digital work, I added some digital elements to them. Well now that I have grown so much in the last year or so, these pieces really were starting to bug me. I still liked them, but I knew they could be way better!!!! So here is a little before and after for you.