in the now
it’s been a rough past few weeks involving croup and school adjustments. i feel stretched and blessed and quiet. croup has been making it’s way around my household. yuck! even the baby got it. so we have had late nights and early mornings.
the beginning of every school year is a little bit terrifying for me. if you have a child with special needs you know what i mean. will the teacher get it? will my child get the support she needs. i have been to meetings, on the phone, typing up paperwork, on the phone again, in tears and frustration… emails, research. ugh!!! i finally feel like we are all on the same page after crazy town.
the lesson? communication is always a good thing. and it’s ok to ask for more communication.
through it all, i am so blessed. because she has done way better than even i expected. which just makes my heart swell with pride. i know she doesn’t have an easy path in front of her. i know that she will have to work even harder than most. i know she will be misunderstood. i just hope i can give her the tools to create a beautiful life.
and through all of this craziness, i feel like i am learning a new way of being. just being ok with the mess that is every day life. and learning how to breathe in and through all of it. letting go while still doing what needs to be done. not easy for this recovering perfectionist.
i am hoping for a little more normalcy this week. to get back to painting and creating. i will be back here again soon.