slow down eva
my second born is a pistol. she came just to shake everything up in our little world. nothing can remain put together when she is around. and i love it.
she has her own way of looking at the world. and many times she says things that just make you pause and ponder. because you realize the truth of what she is saying. she doesn’t use a ton of words like my first born, so when she speaks, we listen. sometimes her words don’t quite make sense until you sit with them a while.
so along comes eva… the third girl. and she is desperate to grow up. she wants to go, go, go. she is impatient at her bottle and therefore screams at it to let us know that things are not going quick enough for her. she screams when her little body doesn’t know how to keep up with her two sisters. she was just born ready to move and ready to live this amazing life. eva is one of those babies that was just born ahead of the game. you know?
when eva cries, which happens a lot, my second born abrielle will come around to console her little sister. and instead of saying it’s ok, or stop crying, she says…
slow down eva, slow down.
when she first said it, i didn’t catch on. why is she telling eva to slow down? it didn’t make sense. eva is crying because she is hungry or tired or needs to be comforted.
but the more i sat with those words, really sat with them, the more i realized the amazing insight my second born had. she didn’t see that eva was hungry or tired… but she did see that eva was impatient. that she wanted to hurry up.
now those words seem so profound. there probably isn’t a better thing to say to her in those moments, but slow down eva. slow down and enjoy the journey of growing.
it’s tough. i understand that you just want to go. i understand that you want it yesterday. and you want to be the best at crawling so you can chase your sisters around the house. i understand that you want to see all that there is to see. i understand that you just want that food in your belly so you get on with having fun and playing.
but slow down. and enjoy the world around you. enjoy where you are right now. stop trying to get ahead of yourself and what you are ready for.
which is when i turn to myself and it all seems so obvious. slow down wendy, slow down. it will all come to you when you are ready. stop trying to rush the process. you will learn how to crawl and how to walk, yes even run. but you have to stop and enjoy the process. savor where you are right now. and let go. let it all go. let yourself be where you are at. and know that it’s ok.
this is where you are in life. you have a six month old baby girl. you have a seven year old and an almost six year old. stop being so hard on yourself to get artwork finished and become a designer and get your artwork licensed and lose all your baby weight and cook dinner and, and, and…
just slow down.
and enjoy the small moments.
and snuggle that baby.
and put away the stupid scale.