i have days when i feel like i am digging my foundation with a spoon. you too? i guess that goes with the territory of being a full time mama and a full time artist. and sometimes i just want to scream, can someone please bring me a bulldozer? i have some serious work to do here and i just would like it to go a little bit faster. i imagine i am not the only one. i imagine there are others who feel this way too.
but. i will say i am growing more excited about this great foundation i am building. i am finding more joy in the process. i am stopping to listen. to really listen. which i would never do if there weren’t a few roadblocks in the way.
because sometimes we are just not ready for the success… even if we think we are. sometimes our foundations are not ready to support it. there are days when i grow weary of building my foundation. don’t we all? but there will come a day, when it will all be worth it. it will all pay off… all this digging and working.
so in the meantime, i have decided to embrace my journey. to let go. to really trust the process. and not just the good stuff that happens. but the hard. and the disappointments. and the curves and bends in the road. they are all there for me, to support me on this journey. because the strong ones are those who are not swayed by disappointments OR success. they are able to stay grounded through both. because success is just the other side of the coin. and success is fleeting and failing. but so are the disappointments.
these are my thoughts after not making it to the top 50 of the global talent search. only 3% of the people who entered made it. i won’t lie, it was a disappointment for me. but it just means that i still have some building to do. and i am okay with that. i feel like i grew so much by entering! such is the life of an artist… putting yourself out there, dealing with rejection, not taking it personally, and going back to the drawing board.