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making room for vulerability

May 21, 2012

yesterday was kind of a big deal for me. it was an invitation to be vulnerable for myself and 11 other women. it was intimate and messy and real. we all spoke from our hearts. we exposed the shame in our lives for what it really was and decided that it was time to change our stories. the lies that once defined us holds no power anymore. it was beautiful and true and lovely.

you would never think that strangers could feel so connected within the first hour of our day. but we did. each one was meant to be there. and we all embraced our own shortcomings.

there were a few a lot of moments leading up to this day that i felt major panic attacks coming over me. what if i am a disappointment? what if this day is not all that they expect it to be? what if i fall short? what if i can’t find my voice? what if? my own shame attempted to rule my heart.

but the truth is that i don’t have it all together. my former left brained self was laughing at me. who do you think you are? not to have every step run smoothly… you didn’t even follow the plan. you forgot important things you were going to say and you stumbled through your words a few times. your materials got lost and your thoughts were jumbled.

i don’t have it all together and i was able to expose this lie in front of all these women. and it’s ok that i don’t have it all together. because my guess is that you don’t either. and we need each other to not have it all together. because as women we often fall short of our own expectations and the expectations of others. we think we have to be the perfect mom and the perfect wife and the perfect housekeeper and business woman and all the while look amazing doing it.

we gave each other permission to grieve. because as a culture we often put a timeline on grief. we don’t sit with each other and just let it be ok to not be ok.

we allowed each other to be stuck. and we admitted it to ourselves.

we embraced the process. we let go of the end product. i think i did that more than anyone.

i wish you could have been there my dear friends!!! hopefully one day…

i was sad a little bit that i didn’t have as many before pictures of the day. i wish i had taken more of the “before shots” like the beautiful journals i had wrapped with ribbon ever so carefully. instead i got lots of pictures of the mess. and as i was thinking about the theme of the day, i realized it was just appropriate. who cares about all of the perfect moments? it was the mess that was the beautiful part. so very appropriate.

i am so very grateful for the women who chose to invest a piece of their heart into this day. and i am even still pinching myself that all of these beautiful women wanted to come spend the day doing art with me. but i know that i would not be here, doing this if i hadn’t been through the broken places.

i feel strangely defined by this moment in my life. not by the amazing thing that i accomplished. but by being ok with my shortcomings and making a choice to be vulnerable with these women. and then watching as we all opened ourselves up to being vulnerable with one another. it was a beautiful thing to witness!!!

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18 Comments leave one →
  1. intuitiveone permalink
    May 21, 2012 6:29 pm

    sounds like a safe and healing environment to be in.

  2. scrapgirl1467 permalink
    May 21, 2012 6:32 pm

    Oh how I wish I were there! Good for you and I am sure you provided a healing to the women who attended as well. I wish you much success and happiness with this!

  3. A Walk In My Heart permalink
    May 21, 2012 6:56 pm

    This is a beautiful sharing. God bless!

  4. ann permalink
    May 21, 2012 8:24 pm

    it was a magical day wendy!!! ( you should be very happy, proud, and TIRED!!! ha. )
    i was so happy to be there creating with so many other creative souls and with such REAL beautiful women. such a great experience… just what my soul needed!!! thank you.

  5. May 21, 2012 8:49 pm

    The photos were great – glad you all had a good day.

  6. joanne permalink
    May 21, 2012 11:35 pm

    I wish I could have been there with you all.Sounds beautiful!

  7. May 22, 2012 4:38 am

    thank you Wendy, for breaking the silence and saying:

    ” I DON’T HAVE IT ALL TOGETHER.”

    what a relief to admit that truth.
    i am a woman of failure & victory,
    frail & strong, falling down & getting up again.
    and as you wrote, it’s ok, it’s who i am.

  8. May 22, 2012 7:12 am

    So happy it went well! Looks like everyone had a great time, wish I could have been there!

  9. May 22, 2012 7:39 am

    it looks so beautiful, wendy! what a truly beautiful mess as you and your class journeyed together. a defining moment indeed. i’m so thrilled for you and what God is doing in and through you my dear friend.

  10. May 22, 2012 7:52 am

    Came across your blog, and wanted to thank you for sharing this experience with creativity. You are an amazing writer. Thank you!

  11. May 22, 2012 10:41 am

    It was such a special day – an amazing enviornment with women whose hearts were really beautiful….fun…fun…fun….

  12. May 23, 2012 6:51 am

    it is nice when people admit “yup, I don’t have it all together.” thanks for saying that. glad your event was just perfect. i wish to join you someday. xo

  13. May 23, 2012 10:42 pm

    Well done Wendy! The photos show what a beautiful day it was.
    Big love
    AJ

  14. wmiles permalink
    May 24, 2012 5:40 am

    How inspiring!! Great job Wendy!

  15. May 24, 2012 5:42 am

    How inspiring!! What a playful atmosphere. it’s really beautiful. Great job Wendy!

  16. April permalink
    May 24, 2012 7:22 am

    Thanks for being a vessel for truth to flow out of! I really enjoy all your posts and my painting that came from you recently! You have inspired me and even though I live far away I look forward to a roadtrip one day to attend one of your sessions. Pics are great!

  17. May 31, 2012 6:12 am

    very inspiring and what a great lesson learned it is okay to not have it all together no one dose none of us our perfect we all have imperfection’s

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