finding my way…
this last week i have been feeling a little bit discombobulated. a little turned around. a little bit lost. at times i feel like i am looking around for a road map. someone to say, you are going in the right direction. that would be the easy way wouldn’t it? instead, i find myself digging deep within myself. really listening to what my heart is telling me. listening to him. quieting my heart so that i can be obedient to what i am supposed to be doing.
i honestly feel like i am in uncharted waters. no one has been down this path before… because it’s my path. and it’s not going to look like anyone else’s path. that is the difficult part. because it is so easy to look at someone else’s path and compare. how come mine doesn’t look the same? how come things are not happening to me in the same way?
and yet once again, it all comes back to process. embracing the process of life. finding the beauty in today. becoming who i was meant to be. it’s in this place where i find joy overtaking me. joy in the journey. it’s this place that i return to over and over again. stop looking at where you are going, but embrace the truth in today. if you keep waiting for your life to start, you will miss all of the beauty in the midst of your today.
i am teaching my first becoming workshop this weekend. and here i will sharing this same lesson. the one that i seem to be learning over and over again. the one that it is the hardest for all of us. loving the proces… even when it’s messy, and sweaty and we feel like we will ever be stuck here. at the same place.
today i am getting ready for this weekend. and i hear a whisper… don’t get overwhelmed with all of the details. that was the old you. that is who you were before i remade you. an old pattern you are not to return to. remember i made you to embrace the messy. you have to walk out the message i have put inside of you. become the word. how else can you speak it? instead, be joyful. find joy in the little things today. find joy in pouring out your love for these women. it’s supposed to be joyful, giving. remember how far you have come. and pour your heart out like water. this is the path i have called you to walk.