the true value of you
i realized something about myself yesterday… it is nearly impossible to write a blog post when i have a migraine. when you are squinting at your computer screen like crazy and none of your thoughts make sense in the first place… well, it’s probably time to do something else. say like lay in bed and hope it will pass. so here is the post i was trying to write yesterday.
i bought my airline ticket to idaho yesterday to spend time with melody ross. it feels surreal really. am i really stepping out in such a huge dream? i know that as soon as a year ago, i would not be taking such a big step in my life. i would have listened to the lies that i didn’t deserve it, that i couldn’t afford it and that my family would not have been able to survive without me. i realize how quickly i would have shot my own ideas down.
i mean who am i to be pursuing a friendship with someone who i have looked up to for years? and yet this whole experience has taught me, who am i not to?
humility is the ability to see yourself as you truly are, nothing more, nothing less.
and i DO deserve this amazing experience because i have earned it… well maybe not as much that i have earned it (although that too), but that i can see that i am to be valued and my dreams hold weight. my dreams are important and valid and not ridiculous. when you place value on your dreams, others will too.
when you take the steps to do the work of becoming you, when you find out what makes you tick and what is buried under all of those years of lies that you have so willingly told yourself, then the doors to your dreams will fly open. because you realize your true worth. when you follow after your dreams with wild abandon knowing that they hold a touch of the divine, then you will be fearless and you won’t care what others would say.
even though you hear their thoughts, why does she get to do that? the answer is why doesn’t she?
the answer is why don’t you?
the truth is that we all have this fear lurking right under the surface. a lie that we have all bought into and believed our entire lives. the lie that says we don’t deserve it. and we fear that we will find out it’s true. that we are not enough, that there isn’t enough to go around, that you are missing out because of someone else’s success.
why do i get to go spend time with melody ross? because it’s my destiny and somehow our stories were woven together before i even knew her. it’s why we both feel like we have known each other for a million years. because in many ways we have. the devastation we have both walked through felt like a million years and now is the time we were supposed to meet. she is a beautiful soul who has carried my load and vice versa.
and i want you to know… i mean really truly know today… that you have your own destiny and your own big huge dreams just waiting to come true. you have your own beautiful story of restoration just waiting to unfold. your journey won’t look like mine, it never does look like someone else.
but i promise this, and listen closely, your dream of doing something amazing will be just as mind blowing and so deeply personal and something only you were meant to live. it will be such a personal gift that you probably wouldn’t have even been able to come up with it on your own.
and when you are willing to do the work to prepare your heart and change your life, then your authentic dreams will come forth. and you will then have a choice to believe the lies or the truth. and i hope that you will be able to say, yes i do deserve this dream because of who i am and what have been built inside of me. you deserve to live your wildest dreams my beautiful friend!