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lessons in the waiting

May 17, 2011

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it has been a rough month for me. sick children. health issues. it can be tough when your energy is down and you are dealing with chronic issues that don’t seem to get better. don’t worry, i am seeing a dr. to try to sort through all of my crazy symptoms. i think it is the not knowing that is the hardest. i am sure some of you can relate. i have to take each day as i can, not really knowing what i will feel up to each day. here are a few things that i am learning along the way.

  • it’s ok if the dishes don’t get done and someone sees my house.
  • it’s ok to stay in my pajamas all day.
  • i need to be honest with myself and others about how i am feeling. pretending that everything is ok doesn’t help me get any better.
  • it’s not my fault. i think after being a car accident victim you get a complex where you seem to blame it on yourself, not rational i know.
  • it’s not all in my head.
  • i need to give myself more grace.
  • asking for help is ok.
  • laughing is good for the soul.
  • sleep is important.
  • i deserve to take care of myself.

everything in life is not easy. there will be bumps and bruises and complete stops. there will be times where you will be waiting. not knowing. heartaches and loss. but in the midst of these moments, we have the opportunity to glean lessons. yes there are things that god wants to teach you in the waiting. it’s during these times where we learn to look up. we learn to be grateful for the little things. we learn the true meaning of grace. we learn to rest even when we don’t understand. trust when we can’t see. let go of fears. and know that what is being built in our hearts during these moments will have eternal value.

thanks for letting me be vulnerable today. it’s not easy for me. but i did it because i knew that there was someone who needed to hear it today. someone who needed to know that they are not alone.

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21 Comments leave one →
  1. Shannon permalink
    May 17, 2011 7:54 am

    Amen!

  2. May 17, 2011 8:05 am

    Thanks so much for digging deep and being real! You are a beacon of light and hope for those out there who are feeling downtrodden today!

    • May 17, 2011 5:50 pm

      thanks jennifer! i really appreciate your kind words and support. i know that you are going through your own battles. i think about you and some of my other readers sometimes when i am writing my posts.

  3. craftyweetzie permalink
    May 17, 2011 8:11 am

    I think we often forget to give ourselves grace, thank you for your reminder. Lovely post, and absoluetly lovely work! http://craftyweetzie.wordpress.com/

  4. May 17, 2011 8:30 am

    Thanks for this post! I’ve been thinking many of the same thoughts as I deal with the complete exhaustion of pregnancy and my inability to get anything done.

    • May 17, 2011 5:48 pm

      pregnancy really does take it out of you. i give you permission to get as much rest as possible beki!!!

  5. May 17, 2011 8:54 am

    Thank you for being so brave. And I just want to let you know that you’re not alone. I understand. I was in a car accident a year and a half ago and it severely injured my neck. I was stubborn about it and kept living with the pain, headaches, etc for a long time. It was your blog that helped me realize that I didn’t need to be “tough” and that I needed to seek some help. Now I go to a chiropractor regularly and have gotten to the place where it is much better. I may be dealing with this for the rest of my life but I’m learning that it’s okay to admit that I’m not Superwoman and to go get help when I need it.
    ~And I understand the frustration you feel when your body isn’t doing what your heart wants it to. “The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.” We’re busy Mommas with busy lives and big dreams and it can be so hard when you’re dealing with things that are out of your control.
    ~I will be praying for you that you will find answers and help for your situation. Keep being brave. You are an inspiration!
    ~Kasie

    • May 17, 2011 5:47 pm

      kasie, i had no idea that you were in a car accident. and i am so honored that my blog has had an influence on your life. i am glad that you are getting the care that you need now. it is so important to not be so hard on yourself. blessings!!!

  6. May 17, 2011 9:24 am

    You know what I’ve learned from you? How to be patient with myself and how to listen to what my body is telling me. Thank you for the reminder, friend, and I hope it all gets straightened out for you soon! I agree – answers are so important to feeling secure.

  7. May 17, 2011 9:50 am

    You not only deserve to take care of yourself you are required to take good care of YOU!

    Why I have no idea of what you are experiencing not too long ago I felt the need for deep rest, my body was telling me in many ways.
    I took as much rest as possible. I have learned practicing extreme self care is essential.

    big hugs

  8. May 17, 2011 3:45 pm

    As flippant the adage of “This too shall pass” may seem while you’re in the middle of adverse situations, it is always true. You’re a strong, resolute human and none of these challenges will ever get the best of you.

    Who was it that said, “You can always tell the ones who have been through the fire”? Oh, that’s right, it was you.

  9. May 17, 2011 8:20 pm

    It helps to know that I’m not the only one who has health issues and gets down about it. Wishing I felt great every day and not remembering what it was like 😉 Thanks for sharing!

  10. j4kidz@hotmail.com permalink
    May 17, 2011 9:27 pm

    I know your pain cause I have been going through alot also.I have had depression for 5 years now and am going through a really bad time at this stage.Today is a good day but every morning I wake up and think what will today be like.Sometimes it is so bad that all I can do is sleep all day and sometimes I sleep for a few days staight.I love reading your blog cause it gives me something to look forward to in the morning.Even though we live across the other side of the world from each other I feel like your a friend I can relate to.

  11. joanne permalink
    May 17, 2011 11:27 pm

    I know your pain cause I have been going through alot also.I have had depression for 5 years now and am going through a really bad time at this stage.Today is a good day but every morning I wake up and think what will today be like.Sometimes it is so bad that all I can do is sleep all day and sometimes I sleep for a few days staight.I love reading your blog cause it gives me something to look forward to in the morning.Even though we live across the other side of the world from each other I feel like your a friend I can relate to.

  12. May 18, 2011 12:08 am

    High-five!!!
    Yes… it is al okay :]
    *hugs*

  13. May 19, 2011 11:46 am

    Thanks so much for letting me know you think of me, and for your support! That’s so sweet and wonderful! I learn so much from your posts!:-)

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