there is no indian giving in art
the life of an artist is simple. create. release your creation into the world.
the creating is the easy part. it’s the releasing that gets hard. yes there are those amazing days when you release your creation out into the universe and other people receive it and marvel over it. it returns to you and you find your heart full because the very thing that you created has accomplished some purpose. maybe it made someone’s day brighter. maybe it touched someone in a very deep way.
yes those are the glorious days when your heart soars high and you feel like nothing can touch it.
but for every one of those days, there are many others where you release your creation into the world and nothing happens. you wait holding your breath. in the quiet of those moments, you think that maybe, just maybe i shouldn’t have shared that part of myself for everyone to see. you feel vulnerable. raw. exposed.
second guesses come. there is only one problem. once you release it, there is no taking it back. there is no indian giving in art. once it has left your hands, you can’t take it back no matter how hard you try. it’s like grasping at the wind.
at that point, it’s really easy to start not releasing your art. or at least hold some things back. because it really is letting part of your heart go when you release what you created into the world.
and i think that this where so many artists get stuck. hurt. disillusioned. and broken.
and i think that i would be lying if i didn’t struggle with these second guesses to some extent. i think all artists do.
but i think that you have to finally come to the place where it is no longer about you or your art. it’s about giving your beauty to others. whether anyone chooses to receive it. whether no one ever acknowledges it’s loveliness. it’s an unconditional gift waiting to be opened. and you have to give it with your whole heart.
i am learning to let go. to truly release my art into the world. no strings attached. and it feels freeing. because i know that i have done my part.