dear ones… it’s been a week. a week of sleepless nights and days where i just feel like i am juggling. sometimes i drop a few balls. some times all of them. some days i have to ask for help… because after all, i am only one. and that’s ok really.
and in my brokenness, i find my way back to beauty. because it’s what stills the crazy swirling.
i don’t have to have it all together. after all, it’s the moments where i feel worn down and broken that make me real. like the velveteen mother.
we are all just broken. we all need to find more time to breathe. and that is sometimes the most important thing. to breathe. to lean into grace. and to embrace the beauty that is today.
i hope you find some time to breathe this weekend.
it’s one of my dreams to become a licensed artist… designing artwork for product. one of my goals this year is to really build up my portfolio so i can get an agent. so i am designing patterns to include with some of my artwork. i took the first part of the art and business of surface pattern design this last year and learned a ton. i would love to take the other portions of the class. one day, perhaps. anyways, this class really helped me see my art through a designer’s lens. i love that i can take elements of my artwork and incorporate it into a pattern. i have been taking one of my paintings and designing patterns around that painting. it’s kind of fun!!!
i already shared the beginning of this collection here. but i just felt like it was too much all over the place. so i streamlined it a bit… and this is what came out of that.
i can’t believe it’s already friday… man i had so many blog posts planned that just didn’t get done. i am still figuring out how to prioritize in my business with a new baby right now. this week i was able to get two things listed in my etsy store. wahoo!!! how funny… it feels like it took me all week just to do those two things. it’s crazy how much longer it takes to get things done with a baby.
i am learning how to just take baby steps in my goals. a little bit here, a little bit there. plugging away… pretty soon it will all add up.
here are a few snapshots of my week. just a little peek inside my world. hope you enjoy!
hi. this is me today. yep. i am a baby wearing painting fool today. you gotta do what you gotta do. no more excuses. it’s about time. here’s to hoping i don’t get too much paint on the baby! ha!
here i am again. faced with very little time while taking care of an infant. every single minute counts. it amazes me how much you can actually get done in ten to fifteen minutes. right now, when i end up with a few precious moments i have a choice to make. do i…
a. pass out on the couch and close my eyes for a second
b. take a shower
c. make art
d. make dinner
e. clean the kitchen and do the dishes
f. write a blog post
g. sit there. lost. trying to decide what is the most pressing thing i need to do…
oh well, you get the idea. some days are better than others. like today… today was glorious. i had time to do almost all of these things. but every day is a battle to get back into the studio. some days i end up painting one handed while holding the baby because it’s the only way i can make it work. it’s amazing how much you figure out how to do while holding a baby that i would so not recommend. but when you are desperate, you are desperate. i may or may not have gone to the bathroom, made dinner, emptied the dishwasher and a whole bunch of other stuff, all while holding a baby.
yes. it’s a daily battle to create. but i am finding that if i just focus on little ten minute spurts to do art, it really helps. sometimes that is all i need. ten. minutes. ten minutes of quiet. ten minutes of mess and creative mind wandering.