I have been pondering this concept of flow lately… Mostly because I have felt stuck for a while now, not knowing how to get unstuck. Stuckness is not fun. The times in my life that I have felt the most fulfilled were when I stepped into this invisible flow of grace and giving and blessing.
I started thinking about flow after reading this article by Teesha Moore about living a magical life. There are several areas in my life where I have just been feeling stuck… my business, community, having fun (I know that sounds silly). My studio is such an organizational mess right now, at least up until this week. I would walk in and want to turn right around and walk back out.
I have been struggling to find community lately. A creative community. Ever since I haven’t been teaching, I have been longing to connect with others on a creative level.
Even in my business I have noticed a huge lack of flow. I feel stuck in putting myself out there. So instead of just putting myself out there, I just sit kind of frozen not knowing exactly where to start. Taking Lilla’s class has been helping with that a ton.
So in this place of stuckness I have been complaining to my husband about the clutter in our house and not having enough time or sleep or time with friends or fun or anything. He told me I don’t even know what I want.
But I am realizing that the missing piece is flow. Everything seems so hard because there is no flow in my life rightnow. Stagnation is so not good for creativity. If a body of water has no outlet, it will become dead, killing everything that lives within it. That is why the Dead Sea is called the Dead Sea. Nothing can live in a place of stagnation.
We need flow.
I started cleaning out my studio. And guess what, I am letting go of some older pieces of artwork and passing them onto women who really need some life and hope. Flow. Letting go of the old to make room for the new. How can I ever expect to flow into all the new if I am still holding onto all this old work? I am even ready to go through my supplies and get rid of some of this clutter. It’s time.
Community is not happening because there is no flow and I am making it too hard. Who wants to come paint with me? Invite them over and go with the flow. Where is the movement happening? Instead of focusing on the people who don’t have time to spend with me, I need to focus on the people who do. So I invited a new friend over to come paint with me this week. Can I just tell you how excited I am about this? Someone who is excited to learn and paint with me. I can’t wait.
Even the areas of my house that are just irking me, it’s because there is no flow.
Having fun is not happening either because I feel so stuck. Again, I need to go where the fun is flowing.
My friend Laura used to own a little boutique where I sold my artwork. She would often tell me that if she moved the merchandise around, or my paintings, all of the sudden people would be interested in them. It was something that couldn’t really be explained logically, but it makes sense. It was all about flow.
I love the painting at the beginning of this post. It reminds me of water and flowing. Who knew that I was painting the very thing that I needed the most?