permission to grieve

permission

like many other parents, i dropped my 6 year old off at school this morning fighting back tears with a plethora of “i love you’s”. it was like every other morning… only it wasn’t. i am not sure that morning drop offs will EVER be the same. and i am grieving.

the truth is that my heart is heavy today. i am finding the need to give myself permission to grieve.

i am feeling raw. broken open.

i know that it’s so necessary for me to lean into my grief. to really feel it. to go through it.

because grieving is our only path toward healing.

and i know that we are all grieving this tragedy today.

there are a few things that i remembering through this entire grief process…

i choose to not live in fear.

i must continue to hold my children with open hands towards heaven because they aren’t really mine. they have only been entrusted to me.

i must cherish every moment and every day that i am given these beautiful priceless gifts that are my children.

love and blessings to all of you… and if you need it, i give you permission to grieve.

note: my husband is building me a new computer and my laptop has been sold. yay! this is a good thing because i will have a ton more hard drive space for pictures, videos and art files. anyways, i have a feeling that it is going to be a few weeks before i have a working computer again. because of this, i will be taking a little blog break. so if i am not here before then, merry christmas and i will see you soon!!!

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