i have been keeping a secret from all of you for a little while now. and let me just say it has been soooo hard for me. i finally decided that enough is enough. i can’t take it anymore. so here goes…
yes, now maybe it makes just a little more sense why i have been missing for the last month or so. this first trimester has been rough and i still have a few more weeks left. i am getting close to the nine week mark and just felt like i couldn’t hold it in any longer!!! i must tell my community of favorite people. i just needed you to know. i am not one to not share because of fear of losing the baby. because let’s face it, i would probably share that with all of you anyways. i have now told all of my friends and family and it just felt like time.
this little blessing was a bit of a surprise but i am so overjoyed!!! i just feel like it is the perfect timing with everything that has been going on in my life. god knew. and he is in the business of redeeming and restoring. i feel like this is just another part of my restoration. my first two pregnancies were during a very difficult time in my life. but this pregnancy just feels so different.
it’s true that i wasn’t expecting to be a mother all over again at 35. but… i am ready for a new adventure.
so please just know that i haven’t gone anywhere. i might not be blogging as much as i usually do, but i am still here. just trying to get through this first trimester. i think come august i will get my second wind and be able to be more present. the girls go back to school and i will have more time to get some work done… maybe a few naps too. and i am hoping to still do some journal pages posts in the meantime.
whew! i feel like a huge weight has been lifted and now maybe i can actually find my voice again.