dreams do come true
as a blogger, i have many many posts that i have started but never finished. it’s a forgotten library of unfinished words. for whatever reason, distractions, not being inspired… these posts just sit there. waiting. it’s funny because i hardly ever return to those posts. because sometimes just getting them out of your head is all you are supposed to do.
there is a post in this long forgotten library of blog posts. the title reads… women i want to meet. the post was started on january 14 of this year.
there are quite a few women that i want to meet one day, but guess who is on this list? melody ross.
here is what i wrote:
melody ross. can i just say inspired? this woman has more creative mojo and ability to inspire other women in her pinky than anyone else i know. come on! one day i vow to go to brave girls camp and meet her face to face where we will chat and create and dream together. i love her heart and all the amazing things she has accomplished in her career, mostly investing in women’s lives and making a difference. wow! i am so going to meet her some day.
it kind of gives me goose bumps to read those words. i wrote that. and now my words are coming true. tomorrow i will board a plane to go see her face to face.
this trip means so much more than just a plane ticket for me. i feel like it’s the completion of a very long and weary journey i have been on toward healing. and this is a very precious gift from god to show me all of the ways that he has rebuilt me from the ground up. sometimes god has to demolish all that we have ever believed or thought before he can rebuild what he truly wants for us. listen to this analogy from c.s. lewis:
Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what he is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on: you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised.
But presently he starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make sense. What on earth is he up to? The explanation is that he is building quite a different house from the one you thought of — throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards.
You thought you were going to be made into a decent little cottage: but he is building up a palace. He intends to come and live in it himself.
i was that house once. living in devastation. my house had been demolished. everything that i had known was gone. and i couldn’t see past the hurt and the pure devastation. i didn’t realize that god was going to rebuild my life into something even more beautiful, even more amazing than what it was before.
and now i can look at my life and see all of the ways that i am not the same person anymore. i have been transformed by the broken places. i don’t understand why god sometimes uses these difficult and heartbreaking things to make us into who we are supposed to be. all i know is that i am thankful. and i love who i am now and all that he has done.
so this trip is a celebration of sorts. a lovely meeting of kindreds who feel like long lost sisters on a very similar journey. i don’t really need to meet melody to know her. i already do. but it will be ever so lovely to sit with someone who can really truly see me. and vice versa.
in a sense i have been waiting seven years for this trip. and it marks the beginning of a new season. a new place of stepping out in big ways and growing into who i was meant to me and really doing what i was put on this earth to do.
i write this to encourage all of you still in the broken places. i write this to tell you that there is an end. and even though it feels like forever, there are beautiful gems and treasures you will find once you are out the other side. embrace the process and find the beauty in the simple. because even though it seems like your dreams will never be reached or even that you are afraid to even dream… there will come a day, if you hold on and push through, that you will be walking your dreams out.